Since I am very very VERY interested in modeling.And AsNTM Cycle 2 is just finished...
Plus,I need to support my family a better living and my future to study further and help along the financial problems in my family.
Cause my parents are gonna divorce,but it still haven't been settled because my mom is quarrelling the financial problems for me and my brother's future.Like the money for our future studying in an university,how much money should he give us.
Also,my dad dragged me down and slap me,like for being in an relationship with my ex.Slapped me,kicked me,hit me and more...I wanna prove that this kind of way to teach a child is wrong.Cause it can reflect ur child's personality and mental health.
But I don't like to see the greed in my mom,and the little problems that she burst out some stupid things and the entire family knew.Like she said she is worried about our future for studying,but my father is the only one who gave us the money for living.And she says that my dad don't save money for our future life for studying further,but still,MY DAD is also the only one who gave her RM2000 every month,and she has her own stable job.And she still wants money from my dad!
I can't stand to see the greed in my family,which now affects my brother to have her greedy personality for cash too.I am not a greedy person after somethings happened in the past.So I am quite calm for solving problems and much much more smarter thinking at personality thoughts than my whole family.
Examples like: what should I do if everybody dislikes me or what should I do if I am being bullied.
I would like to try out the next cycle of AsNTM,it may be weird for being the only plus size(Maybe) at the casting if I am selected.But I am confident and sure that I will do great.
Also,I would like to change the market of plus size modelling in Malaysia.Since there are not much field for plus size modelling here.and many plus size models who wants to quit for being a plus size model.Cause there are not much jobs for them.And I would like to change a sentence,that is:'You are too fat to be a model'.
Well,hello?Some of our bones is much much bigger and wider.But people just keep calling us fat.Erm..Is it my problem or their problem for not knowing that there is a huge market for plus size modelling overseas?
I also have the same target as Robyn Lawley,a plus size model who is almost the same size as I,to change the way and the market of modelling for the world to see what models really should like.
That u don't have to be size 0 to be a model,and most models who wanted to stay that thin,they eat tissues and cotton balls,most of them also suffered Anorexia Nervosa or Bulimia Nervosa.Which is very scarily thin.
I have a reason to be in AsNTM. I have a reason to be a model.I have a reason to stay.
I am a model,I am a fighter.I am strong,I am smart and sure of making decisions for my life.
I don't care if u don't like me,I love me.
:)
Also,I found a video that is quite inspiring for education young children for self esteem.
Here's the link:
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=866748743352723&set=vb.199633956730875&type=2&theater
100% No virus,and it's just a video by Tyrese Gibson. If every parent teach their children like this,I am sure that we will have less pregnant teen moms,less vistims of domestic violence, and more confidence and pure love.
:) Happy Thursday
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