First time ever apply false lashes..

And first time ever looked like a freak with makeup too.
I can't even look at myself.I'm not going to like,try to make stupid things with myself or try to be wearing the same thing.with other ppl.Cause makeup,is forbidden in my family,I can't touch makeup products or my family or relatives will kill me or throw away even if it's a very expensive product.But pls,help me with my look...